Kim Petras: I Don’t Want It All (BunHead)

Whenever I listen to I Don’t Want It All by Kim Petras, my whole body tingles. I let the song wash over me – then I let it wash me away. I feel the sun on my face and waves lapping at my feet. More than that, I am filled with an effervescent brightness that makes me feel like I’ve somehow fallen into the pages of a travel brochure. Seriously. I may be in my bedroom but honestly I’m not at all. I’m lounging on a beach, drinking cocktails, having some kind of brain massage.

The air is charged. This is one of the most electrifying moments of my life. I can feel the whole world shifting, my entire perspective changing. This is pop music but it’s not the kind I’ve grown up with. The girl singing feels like she’s totally in charge. More than that, she feels like she’s having the kind of fun I’ve never had. Not since I was a kid anyway. And that’s not the same kind of thing at all. I feel like I’m sitting inside a pink balloon, floating into a blazing blue sky.

I do not want to fall to the ground so I play the song a hundred times more. The intro is synthesised in some kind of staircase fashion and I leap up it and then back into the fuchsia bubble waiting for me at the top step. This is fantasy music. I’m a hundred feet, a thousand feet, a million feet above the earth’s surface. I never want to come down.